- Oh shit, not again.
I have been getting this card way too much in the last month, and this
same thought runs through my head every time. It haunts me. Why do you
insist on showing yourself to me?
This all started when I decided that I would try to go study nursing in
another country. No one really believes that I am nurse material, so
everyone started doubting my decision: "Are you sure that's what you
want?" , "Isn't there something else that you want to do?" , "Can't
you just stay here?".
At that point, I looked over to my cards. Might as well see what they
have to say.
It looked good at first, many fiery, determined and focused cards,
showing that I was on the right track, but then boom - 3 of swords
-Loneliness - I thought to myself - Am I going to be lonely?... Oh...
Am I going to miss this here?
I think it's normal, missing someone, missing your hometown and the
people who have grown with you and been with you for the last years.
It's not a thing that I just forgot to think about when I decided to
move so WHY DO YOU KEEP POPPING?
I get the feeling that I'm failing to see the big picture here...
The traditional meaning of this card is well shown on the Rider-Waite
deck (at least I think so) : betrayal, sadness, loneliness, hurt, a
love triangle gone wrong...
You just have to see the card that are next to it to really understand
what kind of situation you should expect. But remember this - all
real growth comes from pain, and sometimes suffering can lead to the
right path. Learn from things, don't fear them.
God knows that I'm trying to.